Saturday, January 05, 2008

Kill Me Now, Please!

THE BOY, did.not.sleep.last.night. Not at all. Bald Man and I decided to spread the misery so we took shifts, so now we are both so sleep deprived that we are both grouchy and almost non functional. I do not know, the doctors do not know, why he doesn't sleep. This has been a problem from the second he exited his birth mother's womb. He did NOT sleep in the NICU, of course he was very busy having seizures and shaking half to death from heroin withdrawal. And his first foster mother said he never slept more than 15 minutes to a half hour at a time in his three months with her. We did not sleep until he was about 18 months old when the doctors decided we had suffered enough and let us drug him. It has not been perfect and the amount of drugs he takes to make him sleep are enough to make any new doc's eyes spring wide and their mouths drop open in surprise. And even more so, when we say, well that generally keeps him only waking up 2-5 times a night, and going right back to sleep instead of oh, the 20-30 times a night before the medications. He is on enough sleep meds that it would make an adult sleep for three days. But last night, as it is sometimes, even with all the drugs, HE DID NOT SLEEP. Not at all. It only takes a few nights like this and Bald Man and I lose our minds. We just don't have the reserves anymore, after 10 years of not enough sleep, you just kinda lose whatever you had when you started. We are praying with every fiber of our beings that this was just a one night thing. A run of these will make us fit only for the looney bin. He has fallen asleep now, but will he stay asleep? Stay tuned for the update. Same bat time, same bat channel.
******Updated Sunday Morning*******
Praises to all that is holy. The Child slept last night. Bald Man commented that he felt like he was recovering from a hard weeks work. I personally think that it probably feels like we are recovering from bad hangovers. But, since neither the Bald Man or I have ever been drunk, we really wouldn't know. From others I know who drink and report back what a bad hangover feels like, I think it is probably quite similar. We live another day and so does our son. Small victories.

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Sue said...

UGH! I can't handle sleep deprivation. Nothing makes me lose my will to live faster. I hope you were able to get a nap in or something. YUCK!

Yondalla said...

Oh, I do not do well on little sleep either. When the boys were nursing Roland would go get them, bring them to me while they were screaming and then wake me up. Yep, I sleep that heavily. I stayed awake while he stood next to me holding a screaming baby.

When I spent half the night in the ER with Frankie I was a mess the next day.

I am so glad he slept last night!.

K J and the kids said...

This won't help with the lack of sleep....but it will make you smile :)
www.brownbaggifts.com/mormon_woman.htm

Mongoose said...

What a miracle your child is. I say that in all seriousness. And I'm so glad he slept.

Sheri said...

Our son has the same issues. Thankfully the "mother of all anti-psychotics" his is on now does the trick for . . . ready for this . . . . 9-10 hours at a time.

whoohoo!

K J and the kids said...

I have one more !
http://crackle.com/c/High_Wire/Mrs_hughes_skewed_views/2041059#vt

Jo said...

KJ, your mormon woman link didn't work and I am so sad I can't find it on the internet! Help!

K J and the kids said...

oh my heck you've got to hear it :)
www.brownbaggifts.com/mormon_woman.htm

then click on the yellow words that say mormon woman. it sometimes takes a minute.
If it still doesn't work, let me know what your email address is and I'll try and email you the link. :)

K J and the kids said...

what is your email ? post it on my blog and I will trash it as soon as I get it.

Maggie said...

Interesting. Slugger can't sleep without the help of meds either. I hate that his eating and sleep -- basic functions of life -- are so regulated by meds. But what can we do?